minwei

2010-06-09T22:02:00.004+08:00

if you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain.

i feel so tired, but i know i'll pull through.

2010-06-05T15:02:00.001+08:00

i think hunger always defeats your determination in being defiant and obstinate.
can't believe that i have to surrender to my growling stomach.
otherwise, i can just be unyielding.
ok, maybe there are other stuff that will cause me to falter, but food suddenly becomes a weakness.

the stress is heating up! and seriously, there are lots of work to be completed.
but thankfully, in the midst of stress and anxiety, there are still things for you to be happy about. in a way, it helps you not to be overly stressed up about school work and it brightens your mood when you get into irritating, groundless and unreasonable arguments.
Lynn Sun is also another happy element. made me smile in public. bet people were thinking that i am crazy.

ok, i shall do maths now, after a very nice late lunch.

to think i was acting my way through, trying to get over everything.

2010-05-30T21:53:00.002+08:00

UNIMAGINABLE. seriously.

i think i should take away my room's door knob. keep knocking against it. and today, my arm hit it again. so painful! it was quite a stupid reason. i thought my brother ignored me intently when i called him, so i was kind of frustrated and then i stormed into my room, then, "BAM!"

the conclusion was, i shouted for him too softly that he couldn't hear me, hence no response from him. so i should just blame myself for this misfortune. and now he came into my room, and for don't know what reason, took out the guitar and knocked his head on the cupboard. haha, couldn't stop laughing! i shouldn't have given him all my history notes, they are overflowing that he has nowhere to throw on. so apparently, my bed has to claim that job reluctantly, without my permission. to think i used to wish for another baby brother. oh dear, luckily it didn't happen. i think the whole house will be in quite a mess. especially my room.

on a side note...

i'm happy today!

piano box is cool and nice :) thank you!

feel like staying home tomorrow. shall i be a bad student for once?

2010-05-28T12:40:00.000+08:00

THE HOLIDAYS ARE HERE. why does this term feels like it's only a week?

my mother's birthday happened to fall on that day. i was so frantic over what to buy for her, but managed to get her a bunch of roses in the end.

National Vertikal Marathon! I'm not going to do this kind of volunteer work again. it was such a waste of time. just stand at a particular level and cheer for the participants. worse still, my station happened to be the water point, so i had to fill water into cups, serve the participants, put ice, pick up cups, encourage and cheer for them. I didn't get to sit even for one whole minute for 10 whole hours! and i didn't sleep for the whole of Saturday. they expected us to wake up at 3.45am but some of us ended up talking through the night. but hey, i'm glad we talked.

i think it was about 4 plus in the morning. i was really sleepy.

the next day, i was waiting for the train to go to school, and i could just close my eyes suddenly while standing. just stopping short of going into dreams.

while waiting for the marathon to start, Lynn came to level 23 to look for me :) she was at level 26. throughout the whole marathon, she kept shouting "xiaoweiwei", then i'll just respond by stretching my head out at the stairs and looked straight up at her. haha, so sweet!

anyway, this was the boys' toilet, which was just right next to my water point. nobody uses it so we just went in.

at NTU. supposed to be sleeping but we talked through the night. the hall was super stuffy.

GP paper yesterday was extremely tough. sighhhhhhhhhh

nevertheless, it was still a happy day yesterday.

2010-05-20T20:54:00.001+08:00

hate it when people ask me for a favour, they make it seem like it is an obligation on my part.

it's not that i don't want to help you, but you are getting too much with your demands. I accepted your request at first because i thought anyway it's just a simple matter. But it's frustrating when you keep adding on to your requests and worse, demand in the way like you are ordering me around. I'm sorry, i just can't take it. Don't like the way you ask for it!

ok enough of venting frustrations. School is so stressful! i'm so so worried that i can't finish my revision on time. and i've been sleeping as late as 1.30am, which is about a little less than five hours. I'm always the last to turn off the lights at home. it feels so lonely at times :(

mum asks me to go back to malaysia from next thursday night to saturday morning. should i go? so much work to do and there's dialogue in the dark. but grandparents are also important. sigh how?

2010-05-16T22:29:00.000+08:00

saw this somewhere:

"it's sad when people you know become people you knew.

when you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life.

how you used to be able to talk to for hours and how now, you can even barely look at them.

it's sad how times change."

can't imagine how i'm going to live past this coming weekend.

awkwardness.

but everything will pass by quickly, at least i hope so!

scary BT2 is coming. it felt like BT1 was yesterday.

and i just remembered I'm going to watch a concert with my family on the 29th of May! then there will be dialogue in the dark before that. i just can't wait for that day. but first, i have the GP paper to pass through. AH!

it'll be over soon :)

2010-05-09T13:40:00.002+08:00

hello, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
to............

my MUMMY! :) so indispensable in the family.
thank God you are back from the USA.

and... MISS TNEE/MUM!
this picture is like taken 2 years ago. but nvm, still my mum and jeffrey junior's :)
miss tnee thought i would forget, but i promised i will wish her every year.

i like the parents' day event in church today. people sang many songs, many old love songs.
feels more like an older version of Valentine's Day. haha.

2010-05-07T21:00:00.001+08:00

Despite the blazing weather, I feel happy today. Plus today's lessons in school were so slack, no PE and there's only history lecture and GP tutorial. but everything is so interesting today, with all the stuff about science and technology and religious fundamentalism.

William is being funny again. Miss Sin was talking about genetic engineering and said that we have the same genes as our parents so we will look like them. then William turned to tell me, " My father has six packs. Now I don't have, but never mind, I will have it next time." HAHA. luckily there's William to talk to during GP, if not I will die of boredom. and he thinks that I kept sighing, but in fact i wasn't. It's just all the phlegm that is stuck somewhere around the nose, throat and chest that i have to "heave" a big "sigh" of breath. So I wasn't sighing. :)

I just had the nicest dinner in one month. My mother is back and seriously, I miss her cooking! my brother even complained to her that I only cooked for about 7 days then I stopped. ok yes i admit to that but cooking was so tiring that I really gave up the notion of cooking everyday. My father also couldn't take it. So..... I'm super happy that Mummy is back! and she even bought us things. :):)

I'm also glad that things are clearer now and I can't believe that I actually said it. Because if it's in the past, i think I will just choose to conceal everything.

Things will get better :)

i really hate the weather.

2010-05-04T22:27:00.000+08:00

i didn't believe it in the first place when my classmates said the comprehension homework was hard. but now, i can't help but agree totally. the first question left me staring for 10 seconds. I wonder if those students who did that for prelim passed.

my head feels so heavy, I feel like going to sleep. save me!

2010-05-02T17:58:00.003+08:00

went to support Estella, but it rained. so we didn't get to see her play.

but look at the broccoli we got her. couldn't find any flowers so we just bought the broccoli that somehow looked like a bouquet of flowers.

CT netballers :)

pearl almost broke my back.

i hate it when people impose their will on me, as if i have no opinions of my own. just go ahead with it since you've already decided. why bother asking me? you just want to make yourself look like you are a gracious person by asking everyone for their opinions. worst is, you kept pushing the responsibility around when at first you willingly claimed it. i can't believe that i could actually tolerate all these.

thank goodness there's no school tomorrow. I'm so tired and i think i'm going to fall sick soon. felt so cold during service today.

sigh i miss the violin! feel like taking it up again but it's kind of late. it's so nice when it's played with the piano, like a duet. i only did that during violin exams.

2010-04-26T20:58:00.003+08:00

i have to blog before i can study in peace.

some things are too good to be true. i think this is a wake-up call for me to stop deceiving myself and to trust that everything is just a mere misunderstanding. somehow the word "mere" contradicts what i'm feeling right now. but whatever, i really don't want to think so much about it. the more i think of it, the more sucky i feel. the weather seems to match my mood today. so rainy and gloomy.

but should i find out the truth? i guess sometimes it's better to not know it at all right? i don't want to make everything so complicated because it might just be my problem. don't want to cause an embroilment just for the sake of my wrong perceptions and selfishness. it's better to get it over myself. luckily i've not sunk so deeply into it, if not it will be so difficult and painful to pull myself out of this confusion. sigh, it takes tons of courage and determination to do so.

courage doesn't have to mean fearless :)

there are 3 guys today who amused me and made me laugh a lot.

Timothy is so funny. i was so frustrated over maths today and so i wanted to ask him for answers. i was like "hey friend...." and before i could finish my sentence, he went "FRIEND???!", then pretended to fall onto the ground like he was super dejected. i couldn't stop laughing about it for about 10 minutes! he himself couldn't understand why he did that and so did i. ok i'm sorry, "KING!"

then there's William. He looked at my AQ while i was in the toilet. when i went back to class he told me, "hey actually your language is quite strong!" for a moment, i felt so brightened up. he pointed out the stuff i wrote like "spider's web of special interest groups that manipulate political.........blah blah blah". i was quite confused at first because i couldn't remember myself writing anything about spider webs. then..........the truth came to light. the sentence that he pointed out was actually an argument i selected from the passage. HAHA! how profound could i get.

lastly, there is Mr Eng. to show how far or long the line on the graph can extend to, he claimed that, "it can be extended so much that it is out of the class." and then the next thing he did was, he walked out of the class! the whole class totally burst into laughter.

fortunately, there are these people around to make the day less dreary and forlorn. and i met so many people today. Secondary school teammates and coach! the moment i saw miss choo, i was like "i miss her a lot!", although she was fierce and shouted at us when we made mistakes during court work.

but best of all, there's Lynn :) and actually Hansen too.

thanks for hearing me out! and Estella's arms are so nice to hug!

love you guys! :)

so yeah, shall not mull over it.

back to work :)

i meant it in a serious way. but you didn't notice it.

2010-04-24T22:47:00.000+08:00

i must blog about this.

i was doing my GP summary five minutes ago then my brother came in. guess what, he posed a challenge at me. Chinese some more. He said a very profound and logical phrase and asked me to state a phrase that can counter it. obviously i can't so i asked him to give me a clue. then we ended up playing charades! LOL.

this brother is getting more arrogant nowadays. keep showing off his chinese in front of me and even commented that my four years of higher chinese had been a waste.

but then luckily my chinese teacher from secondary school made a justification. she told my brother that, "你的文笔没有比你姐姐好。” muahahahaha. i was so excited about it and i kept laughing about it. but wait, it's not the end. “可是你姐姐没有比你用功。”

my teacher is so cheeky! like lifting me up to the skies then pull me down again.

i kind of miss chinese.

alright, end of post. back to summary.

2010-04-23T22:51:00.000+08:00

THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!!
this week flew past in a wink of the eye. i can't even catch a breath!
alright, that's an exaggeration. i'm still alive.

I'm so happy that i completed Napfa test today. Considering that I've not been training for about one month, my 2.4km timing is not that bad. and for the first time in my education years, i got an "A" for inclined pull-ups. hahahaha i'm so happy about it.

i overslept today. in fact it has been like that for the past few days. luckily now school starts 10 minutes later, if not i will be late.
Estella said that my eye bags are getting worse and Phionna said my eyes are kind of red. I even got sleepy suddenly during dinner with PW group yesterday. i just fell silent and they thought something happened to me. the truth is, i was so energy-less. but the food was great, i love it.
i also came to realise that my PW group had 3 factions and I happen to make up my own faction. Boon Siang and Tze Ying had always been quarreling, Ray and Ji Hae were constantly discussing about project stuff, and I would be doing my own part of work, alone and quietly. i speak as if i was being left out but come to think of it, it's quite funny.

should i sleep now and wake up earlier tomorrow?
i'm so stress. save me.

2010-04-18T20:10:00.002+08:00

i find myself quite "irritating" and quite an idiot sometimes.
it's obvious that I like how things have turned out, but I just can't bring myself to act like i'm really happy about it or rather, I just pretend as if nothing has happened. maybe that's the reason why others found it so hard last time to try to figure out what I was thinking and eventually left off with confusion and being baffled. I don't know why and I find it so unnatural and hard to do so. actually, i can't really describe that feeling because it's inherent. i can't help it! but i'm really surprised that from nothing, it actually became something. so yeah, something to be glad about and i really am. REALLY.
but on the other hand, I'm not even sure whether I'm right about it. so i guess, just let nature takes its course? yeah, it will work out eventually.

i finally have time to blog this week! not like i have a lot of time right now, but i can at least take some time to rest today. this week was quite bad with so many things happenening, waking up suddenly in the middle of the night, sleepless nights, and some depressing and disappointing stuff. BUT......... there were still things and people for me to be happy and excited about. so yeah, neutralisation takes place and so the week was ok. and thank you lynn sun for your comfy shoulders. actually estella too. thanks!

another week is gone and my mother will be back in 2 weeks!
but... it also means that.......... sigh, what should i say. many possiblities.
i hate it that time flies.

i want to get a haircut soon! should i wait for my mum to be back?
and i have a sudden liking for chocolate milk. it gives me the energy.

ok back to work :( JC is so tiring.

2010-04-11T18:11:00.004+08:00

are things really more precious when there's lesser of it?

maybe because it's lesser, that's why it's easier to be forgotten.

the constant that you thought wouldn't change, has unfortunately changed.

i'm so disappointed and heartbroken that it has.

perhaps it's not your fault entirely, or rather we all have a part to play.

we just can't let go of the fact that how some things have turned out and the stupid pride just keeps getting in our way.

and things weren't supposed to turn out this way.

i guess this is another big big reason.

maybe right from the start, we already have different objectives.

things are so awkward now and they were never the same as before.

i hope this time you are really choosing options that don't disappoint yourself,

although we are feeling bitter about it.

forgive us for that.

nevertheless, i'm still glad.

because it happened.

and we've worked quite a bit together.

thanks for making everything so enjoyable.

you've made everything less painful when the journey was so arduous and irritating.

i'm glad i met you.

i guess all these only happen once.

and they are really precious.

无条件为你不顾明天的安稳

为你变坚强相信你的眼神

不敢想不敢问

有一天坏的可能

2010-04-10T07:30:00.001+08:00

life has been stressful but happy at the same time. because my class got second in the 10 x 200m relay. stressful because the amount of work increase sharply. i can even plot the statistics on the graph and there will be an obvious sharp and sudden rise. everyday is frustrating and the weather seriously has a big role to play. and now as i am blogging, it's raining. sigh, i can't make sense in what i am typing now.

but good news are always good to share. we came in second although we didn't train for it. and the other classes did. we even got the fastest timing among 35 groups during the heats by 6 seconds. coooooooooool. yay!

we ran!

the whole class :)

lynn was great.

he's acting like he is our coach.

spot the difference. lynn's shoe is the one on the left. and mine on the right.

praise team practice later. rush for time!

2010-04-06T21:52:00.001+08:00

and so Mummy left for USA. i'll see her in one month's time.
i can't imagine how life will be.
and of all time, I have flu now. AGAIN. it's like an annual programme that persists without fail. and I feel so cloudy now. just want to sleep but there is a lot of workkkkkk.

it's sports day tomorrow :( i hope i can run.

everything is going to be alright, maybe not today, but eventually.
i thought i was ok, but i wasn't. sigh.

lots of work.

2010-04-04T15:17:00.000+08:00

Today can be such a disappointing day, yet there are events that trigger so many of my thoughts and made me realize how amazing God is. I think, "amazing" isn't even sufficient or it doesn't perfectly fits to describe His grace. He is just ....... indescribable. Even though the thing that happened today doesn't really have a direct impact on me, it arouses the inner feelings and forced me to reflect on many things.

Trust is really so fragile and precious. It takes two so much to get to know each other better, to be so comfortable and to really open up, and yet sometimes it can just take one simple trivial matter for everything to go down the drain. Often, pride gets in the way. and this "pride", it is a stupid damn thing. If it is the thing that stops two from breaking the ice between each other, it is so not worth it, because it could have been better.

sometimes in friendships, we expect the other party to contribute as much as we do, but why can't we just ask ourselves how much more can we give to make it even better? It is not always about accepting, but giving in relationships. If there should be a requisite to everything, then what is Jesus's sacrifice? He didn't set a condition for us so that He will be willing to die on the cross. He did it unconditionally, without asking for anything in return.

and i realised another thing today. When we have quarrels or conflict with each other, sometimes all it takes is just a "sorry" to reverse the whole situation. You don't have to go down on your knees, just be sincere and truthful about it and the other party will understand.

oh my, I was still feeling kind of "sian" this morning but now everything changes. I'm just in awe of God's grace that allows two friends to reconcile with each other again. Nobody expected this reconciliation to happen, at least not this period of time. But I'm so glad for my friends. Best part is, I'm so proud of myself. I did something to trigger the thought in one of them (let me claim some credit ok?)and luckily i did, because i almost threw the thing away. i'm just happy that i was able to convey God's message to her :)

normally i dread sundays because i have training the next day. But now there isn't, so i'm happy again.

HAPPY EASTER!

2010-04-02T23:21:00.001+08:00

sometimes when you are at a loss for words, photos and pictures come in handy. just like now.

it was two weeks after my actual birthday. but my classmates are super nice. thank you!

they got lynn a cake too. sometimes, maybe all it takes is just a cake to comfort our heartbroken souls.

but i'm so jealous! her cake is so much bigger than mine.

pretending it was her birthday.

i guess i'm less affected by things now. come to think of it, everything is a blessing in disguise.

it's just a learning process that I have to go through and I really learn a lot. Being a main player all along, and when this thing happens, it's really kind of depressing. it sucks. some more, all you get are two words, "TOO BAD". it felt like you spent your efforts and time for just these two words. so not worth it.

But maybe God wants to put me through this to become a stronger person. the reality is so harsh. but again, the sadness is so inevitable. for a moment, it felt like i broke up with my boyfriend. i still remembered that i was so excited for every training when i was still a sec 1 kid but as the years go by, i started to get "sian" about it because trainings get tougher. especially when we have to run 2.4km every training. and i think i was mean to say that we'll run an extra round for every minute somebody is late by. i even quarreled with a teacher. but everything is so memorable and time flies. part of the reason why i'm mulling over this is because it has been a passion for so many years and it's just so unforgettable especially during secondary school times. life goes on, and i have to move on.

It will be a better day tomorrow :)

2010-03-29T22:18:00.004+08:00

all along I thought I will be strong enough to take it and thought that maybe that was what I wanted. But the truth is actually so hard to bear. It's not that I'm disappointed or upset over the outcome, it's just that certain things are just so hard to let go of. the tears just couldn't stop flowing.

perhaps it is a double-edged sword.

God has his plans and I am willing to follow them faithfully and always putting my trust in Him.

I believe I can tide through this.

At least, I did the best that I could and I do not regret at all.

In fact, I'm really relieved.

Thank God I still have my best-est friend ever.

So today marks the end of the six-year journey. It's so........................ extraordinary.

Thank you.

cause the heart never lies.

2010-03-27T22:00:00.000+08:00

Despite me being the eldest grandchild in my paternal family, I am in fact second to my brother. LOL. He is so cocky about that.

I went for tomb sweeping today with my uncle's family and grandparents in Malaysia. This was my first time and I must say it's quite a good exposure although I can't participate a lot in it. I helped to paint the wordings on the tomb and guess what, i'm having a backache now because i had to squat down. my great grandfather actually had such a cool name, 王逢杰, and i think it sounds better than my father's. haha!

and so the thing about me being second to my brother comes in here. because my father, brother and I can't offer incense and do the other stuff, we can only like show our respect by going forward to the tomb one by one and kind of like bow. so when my grandmother like called “大孙”(eldest grandchild), I thought she was calling me so I went forward. Then, Wong Beng Jui suddenly pulled my shirt and said so egotistically and cheekily at the same time that, “大孙是我啦!”, and then he pushed me to the side! I didn't know to laugh or what, but I laughed and I gave him a slap on the back. HAHA. He was so cocky for that moment and he said he finally has some hold over me like as though I bully him everyday. sigh, the forces of gender discrimination are unfortunately still present and we humans still find it so hard to overcome this barrier. haha.

This reminds me of "To Kill a Mockingbird".

"Simply because we were licked a hundred years before we started is no reason for us not to try to win." So there's no reason for us to stop fighting against it. HAHA. i'm just trying to recall what I've learnt two years ago.

I'm feeling so energetic now because i slept a lot in the car and also in my grandparents' house. I went straight to the bed when I stepped into the house. slept too little the night before, so had to replenish the sleep.

shall stop here for today. school on monday :(

i don't think i'm in the wrong for feeling like this. that feeling sucks.

2010-03-26T13:10:00.001+08:00

I find it surprising myself that I can blog at this timing like 1.10pm. no school today because I've finished my last paper yesterday. BT1 seemed to pass by very quickly. but it has also been the most tiring exam I've ever had in my entire life from primary school till now. even O'levels was not so brain-sucking and exhaustive. Tuesday was really terrible. I had a a two and a half hour history paper in the morning and had another two-hour literature paper in the afternoon and I wrote a total of five essays on that day. after the history paper, I was already half dead and drained, could not even make sense in my writing in the afternoon. I cannot even imagine that I can endure the 3-hour process during A levels History paper. worse still, there are two papers for history and it leaves no time for you to pause in your writing during the exam. I shall do some warm up exercises on my hand before history exams next time. time waits for no man.

and i think I've got my thinkings straight. I shall not worry about things that are not of much importance to me now. at least, in my present situation. it will happen if God allows it to. If it won't happen, it will be stupid of me to keep worrying about it.

:)

there's friendly match tonight at 8.30pm. I'm gonna end so late today.
maybe going to Malaysia tomorrow morning and coming back in the evening. miss my grandparents!

2010-03-15T21:03:00.001+08:00

i'm officially 18. yes i'm legal.

while studying for econs yesterday(yes, studying before my first day of 18 ends), i suddenly realized being 18 is really really big. i mean in age. i'm going to turn 20 in two years' time! somehow i feel like i'm really a big girl now, i should be certain about my own responsibilities and etc. 18 is such a scary number suddenly. i don't feel as much as being 17 last year. my heart was in quite a confusion yesterday. many things were running through my mind. thinking about the future, the past and the present. so "feeling-ful". 人老了，感触比较多.

my mum said during dinner yesterday that i should pray for the "another half" to appear soon. seeeee, i've really grown up. my mother can't wait to marry me off. haha! alright just joking.

early celebration with the most-loved CT teammates. arifa's missing!

love the cake :)

see, i was still holding my super big bag from camp!

this year, i didn't expect the unexpected. that 1520 actually like remembered and gave me a balloon that is standing tall and mighty in the living room and singing the birthday song like multiple times. and SA teammates actually wrote me cards. and many many friends whom i didn't expect them to wish me, actually sent me messages to wish me happy birthday! i was feeling so guilty for forgetting their birthdays. i'm so sorry, i will try my best to remember now.

thank you to many friends who wished me :) most importantly, i'm so grateful for my family and friends. as usual, i love the card lynn made for me. this year she made it in a handphone message format. super cool and sweet :)

ok, welcome myself to the world of the eighteens.

this shall be my last post for these two weeks. need to chiong for BT. i'm so feeling the stress!

it's nice as long as it's you :)

2010-03-06T22:47:00.003+08:00

it's so rare that i'm at home the whole day today, a Saturday. no training, no praise team. and i'm so so productive today, did lots of work.

i'm feeling so afraid now, like so lost. the A'level results yesterday really gave me the greatest shock i've ever had. is it just my school or what? but it was really really scary. there's so much to do! history is like a fountain. it keeps pouring on you with the crap that the people did in the UN and elsewhere and it's like ceaseless. i'm drowning in it. plus i'm so bad in stuff that associates with money. ECONS. but econs is getting better for me now because the stuff gets more realistic as time goes by. and there's still netball. should i be happy that i'm in the top 16 now? and later on she still has to select the top 12. i don't feel like thinking about it now, i'm just going to enjoy it. most important is that, i'm happy.

2010-03-02T22:30:00.003+08:00

i'm so happy! i finally found this song "Like a Rose". it took me long enough to figure out this song title because it was almost chosen for my primary school's gradutaion day. it has been like what, five years?? and i just realised, lynn sun has this song.

2010-02-28T17:46:00.000+08:00

I feel so fortunate that there's morning worship in school everyday. It kind of like cleanses the soul before you start the day with thunderous amount of knowledge and work. and I got to know and learn so much more English songs with lyrics that are so meaningful. it's so amazing. there's only a guitarist during every worship time, but everybody is so deeply engaged and engrossed in worshipping God. and they really do sing instead of just keeping quiet. it can be especially soothing too when the weather is like a wild fire that is burning.

today's quiet time programme is cool. at least it's more organised than previous years and the purpose behind quiet time is better delivered.

my mind is so occupied with Richard the Third now because I spent the whole afternoon revising about him. I can't help but be in awe of this character. he's so hypocritical but he's so good with his speeches and in his language. however, he's so ugly and doesn't even exist if not i will fall for him.

that wishful thinking.

2010-02-24T22:00:00.000+08:00

I think in every different periods of my life so far, somehow I will meet people who are inspiring and encouraging, and they really gain my respect. and yesterday, I got to know one. not that i only knew her yesterday, just that i didn't know she has this kind of aura in her. my decision changed like totally after she spoke to me. and maybe she's right. why should i let all my efforts come to waste when i have previously worked so hard for it? plus, I held onto it for six years, what's 2 more months. come to think of it, it's kind of hard to let go of something you have been passionate about for so many years.
but still, I'm so thankful for the friends that were always around for me to whine to and giving me advices :)

hansen is also right. girls don't know what they want. but that's also why we are girls.
i'm not referring to only just one matter, but otherss.

i'm suddenly feeling hungry and it's 10pm now.

2010-02-21T20:28:00.000+08:00

I love today's CIP. it's so meaningful and enjoyable at the same time. After visiting the first patient, I felt so guilty for thinking that "i don't feel like going for it". This man is bed-ridden and his tears started to fall the moment he saw us. He didn't even have the strength to shake hands with us and to talk to us properly because he has asthma. Leonard and I were at a loss of words when we saw him and we had totally no idea what to say to him. Luckily there was Tze Ying. but i have no idea what she said to him. at least there's someone there to communicate. then when we visited the second patient, it was totally a switch of atmosphere. he kept making jokes like we have to pay 10 cents to go his toilet. but come to think of it, it's kind of heartbreaking to see such an optimistic and humorous man inflicted by this terrifying lung cancer. i think these two men have less than one year to live. :(

i feel like a retard today. i was smiling and half-laughing to myself when i walked back home from the mrt. because i discovered something BIG AND FUNNY.

the term is like coming to an end. this is so scary.

this is gonna be an abrupt ending to the post.

2010-02-16T22:05:00.005+08:00

so the chinese new year holidays ended in a whizz and there is school tomorrow. oh man this sucks. i miss the fire crackers' noise and the numerous tv programmes i watched with my cousins.

and tomorrow is going to be an interesting day. i wonder what will happen and what people will have to say but i hope there won't be any persuasions because i know i will waver. EASILY. but i think i'm quite determined about it. but again, i'm so afraid that i will change my mind!

hmm..... how nice would it be if there is someone to hear my screams of uncertainty.

i'm still left with Source E for SBQ tutorial. but i'm so lazy. i shall do it in school tomorrow.

happy chinese new year!

cool SACs :)

2010-02-12T20:20:00.001+08:00

i think i'm setting off in 8 to 9 hours time for Malaysia. I really want to go back these few days. But why must there be so many problems before this long-awaited holiday? stupid, now i must carry these troubles with me when i receive my ang baos, when i eat delicious food, when i play and when i go visiting. I was so in a good mood before this "unfortunate" thing happened and i don't like all the smses i received today.

I love today's CNY concert in school. But it seemed like there were never-ending performances. It's the first time I walked into a concert and wondered when will it end. I was anticipating for a drama item though, but there wasn't one. the concert is cool enough anyway. and it's the first time I see Yanjing danced, since the day she quit Netball and joined dance. quite impressive :)

I feel like a hardworking girl. I borrowed broader perspectives and a book on "world poverty and human rights" to read when I have the time to do so in Malaysia. But hmmm........ will I read them? my mother was laughing with a tinge of sarcasm when i told her about it. alright, i will try to read them because I'm so scared for GP! actually, I'm scared for all subjects.

think i will be back next tuesday. I'm gonna enjoy every moment there.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

why are you assuming a role you are not entitled to?

maybe it won't begin?

2010-02-07T21:26:00.001+08:00

I've got so much that i want to say but i can't seem to express them. words just have their limits.

it's that kind of feeling that you think you might be right, but actually you are wrong. on the other hand, you hope and wish something is right, but actually it is wrong or it doesn't happen at all! the next minute, you feel like a fool. worst part is, when you are about to forgo those fatuous thoughts, somehow something will happen that seems to tell you that what you are thinking are not silly at all and you should not give those up? I find it so bewildering! why did i even let myself sink into this when what was present in the past could have been a better choice? at least i think i won't have to be so troubled by it. argh, i hate this.

what an irony, i just expressed my thoughts in words.

my mother just forbade me to everything that requires me to move around. even this morning, she demanded that i don't follow her around in kuo chuan when we just reached. but i had nowhere to go and we reached there as early as 8.05am. she kept asking me to sit down and even asked my brother to spy on me, and made sure that i won't play during 1520 time. and obviously, my brother did his job well. and everybody is so surprised that Wong Beng Jui is so active today. hmm why am i not? because he can be even crazier, just that he is hiding that enthusiasm in the little corner of his heart. haha!

ok, there's school tomorrow. i can't PE and i can't go for training. I'm going to the doctor tomorrow.

now i understand how you felt.

2010-02-06T20:01:00.000+08:00

my left leg is in a terrible predicament. the knee and ankle are swollen. LOL. i'm like a "bai ka". i shall visit the physio in the St. Andrew's village on monday. I can see the good looking physio guy! i'm kind of excited.

i shall upload some photos taken by lynn's camera. it's super cool. there's this smile detector. and so i kept smiling and the camera just kept taking. lynn was so irritated!

that's what i meant by i just kept smiling.

i don't like training today. not because it's tiring.

2010-02-04T21:43:00.002+08:00

I like the sermon during chapel today. the chaplain is so right.

Don't ever engage in something because you want something out of it. Do it for interest and passion.

then should i continue whatever i'm doing now? i'm really feeling tired of it and i seriously lack the enthusiasm and passion. plus, i don't want to end up sacrificing my health and bones for it. but if i discontinue, i know i will be really lazy and passive. howwwwwwwwwwwwww?

this is going to be a really short post.

2010-02-01T19:43:00.001+08:00

today, I was late for school. first time in six years. Never did I expect that I would break my own perfect record today. The train at the purple line was delayed for almost twenty minutes and many SAJC students were late. But they are not considered late and I was! the teachers said those who reach before 7.37am were still considered punctual and I happened to reach at 7.40am. But I must admit that Estella and I walked really slow to school because we have already "submitted to the fate" that we are going to be late. We kind of abandoned each of our own "go-to-school-together" group and took our time. Wei Yang and Eugene managed to reach before 7.37am.

Yesterday was the last service we had in the church building. We'll be moving to Kuo Chuan this coming Sunday and then back in two years' time. I will be like 20 by then? time waits for no man. haha.

my hair is really brown here!

hmmm.......should I cut my hair?

2010-01-31T17:04:00.001+08:00

I feel like a lazy pig today. I set my alarm clock until 2.15pm so that I can nap for half an hour. However, due to some unforeseen circumstances, I happened to wake up at 4pm. that means I slept for 2 hours plus. can't be helped, i really need to pay back my sleep. and i think i shouldn't go for training tomorrow. my knees need some rest. At first it was only my right knee which i like injured it the last time, now both knees are painful. I can feel the pain when I sit and then stand. I can't climb steps! that means i can't do steps during training. oh mannnnnnnnnnnnn

my mother says she will be in US for the WHOLE OF APRIL!!! I can't imagine how life would be. I think we would have to eat outside food like for a month, no home cooked food? means I have to do more household chores other than just washing the dishes? Nobody to fill my water bottle in the morning? lol. one month is really crazy. no wonder people say there must be a woman in every family, if not things will go insane.

i hope this week can pass by quickly. and chinese new year to come faster.

i just realised that today is the of january. eight or nine more months to the A's?

i must be crazy.

2010-01-29T20:54:00.006+08:00

I didn't want to sweat today because I'm so tired from yesterday's training. Plus Mr Chay didn't turn up for PE lesson today. But I'm submissive again. Maybe not submissive but my classmates managed to persuade me to change out of my uniform and we had fun playing basketball. And I think it feels good to sweat. Like I lost 5kg at one go. Everytime we play basketball, Lynn and I seem like we are playing Netball. We rarely dribble the ball.

While on the way home with Estella today, we saw this woman on the mrt carrying her small son and he was staring at Estella. The way he stared at her was so funny as though he dislikes her or caught her doing something bad. When they were about to leave the train, the small boy turned and looked at me. and at the next minute, his saliva dripped from his mouth. haha! it was so amusing and Estella said that the small boy is attracted to me.

there's so much work to complete over this weekend! and I realized I don't really look forward to Fridays now because there's CCA the next day and gone with the days that I can wake up at 8am. But who am I to complain when many others share the fate or even worse? it's just two and a half more months!

hmm... the feeling seems to dissipate. but i don't want it to.

2010-01-24T17:46:00.002+08:00

I believe everyone in my class is struggling to finish up GP and history homework now. oh man, i think GP is so hard. I'm kind of worried. is anti-globalism = anti americanism?

Lynn is so funny. she just messaged me that she's finishing history sbq tutorial and done with GP. But i only finished history tutorial and just started on GP. she said' " jiayou for gp! jiayou for history! may we meet at the equilibrium of no homework soon ^^ " haha, lynn sun i love you, you are so funny. lynn and i had been having fun since school reopens because of Estella. We are like teasing her and making fun of her everyday. good thing is she doesn't get angry and she will joke around with us too. we even made a gag book for her, about all the stuff we joked about her. it helps in destressing you know.

i'm kind of upset about praise and worship. everything is so messy and i think i played horribly. there's still a lot for me to learn on piano. and i think i would want to continue with piano lessons after A'levels, but not those classical type. more on maybe pop or improvisation stuff. maybe, i'll also learn a new instrument. because there's a serious lack of instrumentalists in 1520 and we have more pianists than each of the other intruments. hmm... did i phrase this sentence correctly?

there's training tomorrow :( but it's ok, it's E-learning day on Tuesday. no need to go to school.

2010-01-23T20:09:00.003+08:00

i have been thinking for the past twenty minutes on how i should describe my day, but to no avail. i don't know what to say about today.
it's just that i've been feeling rather disheartened for this week. no, not because of MSA.

hmm should i take a rest now or should i do my work?

2010-01-19T21:14:00.001+08:00

I'm so so thankful that Lynn is in my class. It's good to have a close friend with you from secondary school all the way till now, and you are still in the same class as her. When most of the people want to skip lessons, and you don't want, at least your close friend will be with you and she will attend lessons with you. Most importantly, she will stand on your side. At least you won't feel alone in this stressful period.

Lynn and I were such good students that we attended the makeup lesson for SEA history while almost 3/4 of the class didn't turn up. Lynn was feeling so guilty at first because we sort of decided to skip the lesson. and then a few moments later, i felt the guilt and for some other reason, i decided to go for lesson. and luckily i went for it, because Mr Tan was teaching about the Asia Financial Crisis, which is a totally new topic. I find him so amusing today because he pinned up his hair. haha! he banged his head on the door and there was a scar above his eye brows. He's usually boring during lectures but i can totally concentrate today because of his hair.

I haven't finish international source-based question tutorial and literature homeowork! and there's maths MSA tomorrow. I am so glad that Econs MSA is over. I was telling Lynn that I don't care how difficult the test it's gonna be or what I'm going to write later, I just want to get it done over with. and when it's done, i'm so so happy. i hate econs test. haha!!

Stay the Same - Joey McIntyre

Don't you ever wish you
were someone else,
You were meant to be
the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you
don't like the way you are.When you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far.
And I hope you always
stay the same,cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change.

I think that you could
be whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize,
all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid if you've
got something to say,
Just open up your heart
and let it show you the way.

Believe in yourself.
Reach down inside.
The love you find will
set you free.
Believe in yourself,
you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do.
You'll make it through.

2010-01-16T15:23:00.001+08:00

it's funny that i can now do all my brother's maths questions but not knowing how to do it when i was in sec 4. the questions he asked me were so complicated and i could actually solve it, surprisingly! if it was last time, i would have just given up. maybe i should retake O'levels and see what I will get again. I like maths now because it stirs me to think.

i can finally take a break after a tiring first week in school, with CCA and open house. but i still have to study for MSAs which start on Monday. argh, I really hope trainings can be in the afternoon. for the previous 2 tranings, they were both at night, and i could hardly do anything when i reach home. i just lied on the bed after showering. thursday's training was worse. i didn't even have the energy to move and i didn't even feel like waking up the next day.

alright, i shall return to studying :(
hmm... i have a sudden urge to go and swim.

2010-01-10T22:10:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling kind of sucky now. school is starting tomorrow, and i know when it starts, I am just gonna be pressing myself all the way till the end of the year. I hate the feeling of waking up so early again and I actually do hate staying up all the way till 12 plus or 1 plus in the midnight. i miss the times of sleeping early like at 10am and i used to say i must have 8 hours of sleep.

my mother is so funny recently. everything that i do, she will pressurize me with my future family. like, "what if next time your husband......" or "what if next time your house or kids......". haha. she has really been saying all these recently. maybe it's not so exaggerating that she's pressurizing me. perhaps, nagging? it's quite funny and i will just surrender.

now i am losing all my thoughts and i just want to go and sleep. I really don't want school to start :( how i wish i'm still in kindergarten so that i can cry and my mother won't send me to school. haha. but i'm going to be 18 this year. it's like a sudden realization of Huilun and i today.

that's all for today, i'm really going to sleep now.

trainings on tuesday and thursday, i really need lots of motivation.

2010-01-05T22:14:00.002+08:00

why will things turn out this way?

all along i thought everything was going smoothly and everybody is happy and pleased about everything.

but i realised, they were not what i perceived to be.

it's not the first time these things are happening.

maybe i'm just the one who is oblivious to everything.

is there really something wrong?

why can't people give and take?

why can't we learn to love each other and forgive them for the mistakes that they made?

why must there be criticisms and massive disapprovals of each other?

why must friends turn towards hostility?

why can't we just trust each other and make contributions equally?

why can't we just be patient towards one another?

why can't we be more aware and sensitive to each other's feelings?

is there really no way to salvage the situation?

it really hurts to know things turn out this way.

why must people leave?

how nice would it be if things were really what i thought it would be.

maybe this also serves as a reminder to how much i should serve and contribute, and also to how long i have been stagnant.

God please help us through. We really need you.

2010-01-02T11:10:00.001+08:00

i'm feeling rather disheartened and lazy today. let the photos do the talking.

i was flipping through the photo albums all the way till midnight yesterday. and i realized my hair looked so much nicer last time.

i felt like and idiot for a year.

2009-12-31T19:35:00.001+08:00

time flies, it's the last post of the year again.

I'm so thankful for everything, even the smallest thing or the most stupid thing that you may consider.

I'm so thankful that I'm a christian.

I'm so thankful for the chances I have to serve God through many ways.

I'm so thankful for my family.

I'm so thankful for the gifts that God gave me.

I'm so thankful that I'm a girl.

I'm so thankful for Lynn, Pearl, Yan Jing, Arifa, Carmen and Hannah. They all made the netball journey in CTSS extremely memorable. Most importantly, we are still as close as ever.

I'm so thankful that there's 1520 in church.

I'm so thankful that I'm in SAJC and was in CTSS.

I'm so thankful that I'm allergic to dust because my mother won't make me do a lot of cleaning, except to wash the dishes.

and the list goes on.......

Thank you Lord.

my right eye feels like it's swollen, but it's not swollen. my dad says I'm going to get sore eye soon. HAHA!

I watched Bodyguards and Assasins yesterday with my family, and it's a really good movie. It's amazing that the actors can play their roles so well that my heart goes out to the people of that generation. But I must say I won't really go for this kind of movie because it gets a little too bloody and brutal in the middle.

it's the last day of the year, and I'm staying home again, like usual. Nobody dates me :( but it's understandable because I won't be allowed. haha! at least the fireworks can be seen from my house.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

will the adventure really begin?

2009-12-29T10:37:00.001+08:00

I'M BACK!! the weather is so different here. i was still freezing and shivering yesterday and now i am like wearing shorts and switching on the fan to the highest speed.
i miss the food from the night markets, they are so so delicious. but the trip was rather disappointing in that the places we went were quite boring and we didn't see anything special except for the food. plus there were redundant(in my opinion) places that went to like THE LOVE RIVER. at first i thought the river has many hearts shapes or something, but it's just like the Singapore River. they said couples always go there for dates and the tour guide say we can find some 感觉. but i don't feel anything.

i drank a lot of apple juice on the plane!

but overall, the trip was ok la. i miss the tour guide, he's so funny. he kept boasting that his son is very handsome. i was sitting down and staring into space then he suddenly came over and asked for my age. then he said his son is also 17 and took out his phone and showed me his son's photo. and i think he was not wrong, his son was quite good looking. they should allow tour guide's family to tag along. i think we were lucky to have this tour guide because he is one of the 十大模范导游 in Taiwan. that means he's quite well-known and experienced in his field. He said he is the Gambling God in the tour guide industry because nobody can beat him. everything he says is funny, i miss him!

my brother just asked me if i still remember how to play the violin. oh my it has been years since i touch a violin and my violin was sold like a hundred years ago. i love playing the violin and i remember the caucasian teacher is always so nice.

I saw this in the Chiang Kai Shiek memorial place:

I love you not because of who you are but because of who I am when I am with you.

it sounds so nice.

2009-12-20T18:30:00.001+08:00

I'm flying off tomorrow. We need to be at the airport by 6.30am. that means I have to wake up at like 5 plus? But who cares, I can't wait for the fun and I love to take the plane. I will be back one week later:) xinyi actually asked me to look for them in malaysia at the church camp after I'm back.

Christmas celebrations in church are like over, even the children's. I think the kids are so adorable especially when they are acting in the musical. I stood throughout the whole service today, carrying my heavy bag. I was late for service because i was pianist at the children's service and I was so surprised that many people came to church today till an extent that there's no more seat left for me. It must be the good response from the christmas rallies.

I think facebook is getting boring. I don't know what to do every time i logged onto it.

For don't know what reasons, I feel really tired. But I can't even go to sleep when i want to take a nap.

Will the adventure ever begin?

2009-12-15T22:46:00.001+08:00

it seems like i will have to stay at home for these few days. somewhere below my knee cap on my right leg has inflammation. it's quite hard for me to straighten and bend my leg properly, plus it is quite painful when i walk.
i went to the doctor today and i thought i heard the doctor saying i tore my ligament or tendon or whatever! i can't even hear him talk properly because he was wearing a mask. he almost scared the daylights out of me. so in the end the conclusion was, i might have hurt the tendon when i landed on my right leg after jumping for a pass during training. the doctor said it's a sprain and it will recover if i rest for a few days. luckily it's only a sprain, if not i won't have to think about the taiwan trip.

having an injury can be quite a blessing in disguise. i don't have to walk over to the market to buy lunch for myself. my mother asked my brother to buy it for me. haha!
caught a movie with Lynn Sun yesterday after training. The Princess and the Frog! it was not bad. for that approximately one and a half hour, i suddenly missed the childhood days, when Cinderella, Snow White, the Sleeping Beauty, basically the princesses, were what i was always after. Although it's not the reality or rather there won't be "happily ever after", I think they make childhood days memorable and enjoyable.

christmas celebrations are just in a few days' time. the year is coming to an end soon. J2 days are just about two and a half weeks' away. I'm really afraid i can't handle what's in for me next year.

2009-12-13T20:05:00.000+08:00

was it my responsibility or yours?
you made it sound as if it was mine, but in fact, it was yours!
it's so shocking and disappointing that you don't even feel a tinge of guilt or shame.
you merely brushed the issue aside and said casually that it can be a good opportunity for me?
isn't it just an excuse for your irresponsibility?
i'm not trying to complain and i certainly do not mind the replacement, but you don't seem to realize the matter of importance.
i am appalled.

2009-12-12T22:16:00.004+08:00

i just deleted like thousands of emails from my inbox. and i realized that most of them are about PW. it's either emails from the national library or emails from group members. PW was so scary that it took up almost the whole part of everything, my time, my sleep, even my email inbox. LOL.

training is going to stop soon and the taiwan trip is drawing near. I'm so excited about it, but on the other hand, I'm rather disappointed that i can't go for church camp.

My house feels so much quieter, now that my relatives have gone back to Malaysia. I miss my four year old cousin :(

oh dear. what am i doing? what do i want?

2009-12-10T21:17:00.000+08:00

here I am blogging again, haven't been here for ages.

just returned from a friendly match and i am really tired. We did fitness exercises at the end of everything and sprints which almost took my life. worse still, i have to take the bus back to Malaysia later with my Dad. Will be returning in a day or two. I am so upset that i have to take the bus because i remembered the buses were dirty and poorly conditioned and i sneezed almost every second, all thanks to the dust. my mum, brother and my other relatives were lucky enough to be able to take the car and my dad and i, unfortunately have to take the car because there's no more space.

some pictures to update how life has been :)

I will never roller blade ever again.

yay. everything is well! :)

2009-08-13T17:03:00.000+08:00

I'm sick. I'm on MC till Friday. This means that i will only go school on Monday and i will miss many many lessons. Come to think of it, I used to want to be sick, especially during primary school times. Until when one day i finally fell sick, i regretted that "desire" because the feeling sucks. I had to sit at the infirmary with another guy because he also had fever. The atmosphere was a little weird and we both remained in silence but let out a few coughs. I had to wear a mask and took a cab back home myself because mum and dad couldn't pick me. I looked like a terrorist and i bet the taxi driver got frightened for a moment. He took a few wrong turns but i was so weak that i don't even bother to open my mouth to tell him. This is the power of fever.

But I'm still thankful that i have caring classmates and friends. Many sent messages to send regards and "get well soon" messages. I was so touched and warmed up even though i was shivering in the cold. thank you guys!

2009-07-28T22:18:00.000+08:00

HERO- MARIAH CAREY

There's a hero,
If you look inside your heart,
You don't have to be afraid of what you are,
There's an answer,
If you reach into your soul,
And the sorrow that you know will melt away.

And then a hero comes along,
With the strenght to carry on,
And you cast your fears aside and you know you can survive,
So when you feel like hope is gone,
Look inside you and be strong,
And you'll finally see the truth that a hero lies in you.

It's a long road,
When you face the world alone,
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold,
You can find love,
If you search within yourself,
And the emptiness you felt will disappear.

2009-07-26T14:39:00.000+08:00

I know why I'm feeling so tired for these few days. I think it's because i keep frowning! I think frowning takes a lot of muscles to work and it will wear you out. i should just stop frowning. AND SMILE MORE.

it's gonna be a long long day tomorrow. Training from 6pm to 9pm. i need real and lots of motivation!

2009-07-18T23:50:00.000+08:00

On wednesday, our class celebrated Phionna and Timothy's birthday. their birthdays happened to fall on the same day. we went to some Japanese buffet place at Cathay and we had lots of fun ordering lots of food. Everything was so funny. I'm so glad and thankful that God placed me in 09A03 because i have wonderful classmates. I love 09A03 now although i used to detest the detachments we had during the first few months. But i must say that our class grow closer now and we can complete things together now!

Birthday girl no.1: Phionna Ong

Birthday boy no.2: Timothy Chua

yay! we had fun eating lots of stuff. especially sashimi and scallops!

yay 09A03!

I slept for 13 hours today! I've never slept for so long in my life.

2009-07-10T23:30:00.000+08:00

i've been really tired these few days and i'm so glad that the weekend is here. but still, there are still lots to do. I HATE EOM. it's so troublesome. it makes me feel stupid because sometimes i don't know what to analyse and evaluate. i do feel the helplessness that is lurking somewhere but yeah, i feel lucky that i have God.
i'm having a terrible stomach upset. argh, think it's diarrhoea. i had it last week from thursday to sunday then it stopped on monday when i had steamboat with classmates. and now it's back again. funny thing is, i went to the library today and i kept getting up form my seat to go to the toilet. the people around me kept looking at me. it was quite embarrassing.

i'm looking forward and not looking forward for tomorrow. one is, i have to do eom. thats why i'm not looking forward to. the other is, there's praise team tomorrow! i'm looking forward to that. so yeah, good luck to me.

2009-06-26T22:22:00.000+08:00

I think...... he is irreplaceable. Indeed.

2009-06-25T22:14:00.000+08:00

The Sunday that just passed was a happy day for my old teammates and i. We got third for the Samsung Netball Challenge and we won ourselves a MP3. i was quite elated because that was my first MP3. hey, don't laugh, i'm serious.

we took many nice pictures in between breaks. i love the feeling of playing with old teammates again. it feels really different.

HAHA. lynn's fat legs.

ok, i'm supposed to be sad for the picture.

my fellow captain :)

on the stage when we received the prize. i'm really short beside pearl :(

with auntie ho.

near....far... wherever you are.........

pearl is tired.

:):)

school is starting soon. exams are starting. i haven't finished studying :(

2009-06-20T11:05:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVERYBODY!
I've decided to blog again after many months of disapperance.

JC life has started for around four months and i'm beginning to feel the sweat and stress. the first week after the holidays will be a terror. i'm so not looking forward for school because common test is on the first day of term 3. but who knows? there may be an additional one week break, thanks to the swine flu. I was so worried previously that i will have that disease because i was down with a fever, cough and flu after the church camp. I drank lots and lots of water and made sure that the air con was blowing at me on the bus, just to make sure that i don't get quarantined at the Singapore customs. But anyway, my fever actually recovered like few hours before i reached the customs, so i would still be safe.

Church camp at Peacehaven(genting) was impactful and fun as well. I was so glad that in the end, i chose to go for the church camp. The cancellation of the China trip seemed like it was a blessing in disguise. The camp made me realise how fast time flies and sometimes without you knowing, you might just ................ leave. it's really true. Half of the year is almost gone, and what have i been doing? I was not really productive during the June Holidays, like slacking when i have the time to. I also haven't been doing much of Quiet Time lately. So yeah, after blogging, it will be mass revision :) haha! then tomorrow, it will be beach netball with OLD TEAMMATES!

all these pictures are taken ages ago. some even from last year. like the one below.

with yizhen. tired after filming for 家事报告

yay! the family.

miss tnee/MUM!/miss scales

haha.

estella, phionna, lynn and min wei

that's all today! :)

2009-01-13T12:49:00.000+08:00

YES! I CAN FINALLY BREATHE AND HEAVE A SIGH OF RELIEF!
THANK YOU LORD! :D

2009-01-05T23:14:00.000+08:00

2008 had passed and now with the arrival of 2009, why does it have to start off with feelings of anxiety and worries? O'level results is no doubt going to be released soon, but when will it be? everybody has been giving different dates and it seems that every date they give, it's getting earlier and earlier. I just keep thinking that i'm going to do badly this time round and I don't harbour any thoughts of getting exemplary results. Some people say that if you keep having bad dreams of yourself doing badly, means that there will be a good outcome. hmm... maybe.

casting aside the results, it has been rather enjoyable for the past few days. went for church retreat on last friday and saturday. i must say it was the first time i had meeting that lasted till midnight. and also it was the first time having supper at 1-2am. i don't take supper usually, but settling down at the prata shop, made all of us eager to gobble down the food. They also had praise team practice on saturday and i was so excited being the in charge for the transition of the powerpoint slides. because it was the first time i would be doing that during sunday service. but also because it was the first time, there were some hiccups during service, because i didn't know i must save the slides in the computer and it almost scared all of us. luckily huilun had it in her phone and somebody's laptop that saved the day.

and then yesterday, after church church service, some of us went for japansese buffet at clarke quay. Soo Sian lao shi was kind to treat us to half the cost. I must say we had much fun there and it was the first time i had Japanese buffet. yes ok, i'm quite suaku, i admit. food was quite ok, thinking that it was my first time having it.

going off to school later for rehearsal. may get to see my juniors at work! haha.

Do we think the same way?
?

2008-12-26T13:40:00.000+08:00

hello everybody! :) this is the 200th post!
christmas clebration in church was rather ok, in fact not as good as i had expected. but still, it would be a joyous occasion to remember with all the pictures taken after the celebration and knowing that there are quite a number of people who are willing to accept christ, it's even more wonderful.
a goup of them went down to Orchard for countdown for Christmas and they really called me during their countdown, which was upon my request! haha:) it was quite funny.

alright, these are the pictures that were taken on Tuesday. Lynn, Yanjing and I went to East coast.

i love this!

aw...i love this picture.

we forgot to jump!

yes finally!

and i went off unglam.

after cycling, we were so excited about having steamboat but it was closed! so we ended up eating at the hawker centre there.

then yanjing and i went to Hansen's house for some party. and i was almost the main target for water bombs.

during the journey to Hansen's house, it was really unfortunate to encounter with a rude bus driver. it ruined my day ok. bus drivers should always be courteous. haha!

this sunday would be the last time the old old seniors would be with us in 1520. hope it will really be memorable :)

2008-12-03T22:18:00.000+08:00

my previous post was about Prom. and i haven't been blogging for a few weeks. this goes to show that Prom was a long-time-ago event. which also mean that.....O LEVEL RESULTS ARE GOING TO BE RELEASED!!! I went back to school today for rehearsal and after talking to Mr Ong, Brandon suddenly said that he was nervous and scared about the results. it's coming super fast, or even without you realising it.

somehow, i'm a teeny little bit excited about church camp. haven't gone to a camp for ages!
everybody is going away for holiday! but not me :( i miss the Korea trip that took place 2 years ago. haha!

i want it that way

2008-11-19T16:36:00.000+08:00

CTSS PROM NITE 2008

PROM NIGHT was at Marriott Hotel yesterday. the food was rather ok. i love the fish but i dislike the mango pudding.
Being a contestant for Prom Queen is troublesome. you can't even eat peacefully. at the starting, i just sat down then i was called on stage. Did some catwalk and self-introduction. then few minutes later, up on stage again. then again. but still, it was indeed a wonderful experience. it's quite fun though:)

MISS TAN :) i'm gonna miss chemistry.

GRACE:)

NABILAH:)

he's just cheese.

this is my son. i can see his father soooooooon.
can't wait. HAHA!

KFC MAN! ok la, he's Brandon. i was quite surprised he was in the running for prom pageant too. that's our trophy for the finalists.

peiling is so so so so pretty.

ronald:)

Sunny:) he was polite enough to ask if i mind he put his hands.

Mervyn:) wa. wear until so smart

darling. *slaps* i win!

Quan Mei! Look! she has got flowers!

Yong Liang. he look like mr chiang. somehow

TITUS:)

MISS TNEE. MISS SCALES. MUM!

TAMMY:) she has not fulfilled her responsibility as a bodyguard for four years. i'm disappointed.

PRESENTING TO YOU..........

THE NETBALL GIRLS!!!

we don't have to wear jersey to look cool. we look stunning in dresses too.

Arifa was super sexy yesterday which is what she always is.

Pearl was finally more feminine and she was gorgeous! She was the Singapore Girl.

Lynn wore a dress but almost went off unglam.

Carmen looked like some classic or elizabethan lady.

Hannah looked pretty too! Can you believe it? she said a joke on stage instead of singing when she was on the running for the SINGAPORE IDOL. it was hilarious.

Yan Jing looked like a fairy tale princess who just escaped from the palace and attended prom night.

Joshua:) my fellow prom contestant. he's M3. i'm F3. we were supposed to act a scenario together. and it's about him helping me to take brocolli to let me eat. but i hate it. so yeah, i have to accept it unwillingly but graciously. it's funny. it's hilarious when we have to catwalk.

AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO CATWALK!

the self-intoduction i made: "I HATE SNAKES!"

oh my. how embarrassing!

JOEL TAN:) ok la. ex-husband.

he had golden hair on yesterday.

Zhen Ning:)

Shi Yong:)

ok, i forgot his name. but i know he's a sec 5.

YEAH! THE FAMILY!

Yu Xi:)

4D1'08 :)

he is my HI-FRIEND. wei yang.

our picture wasn;t that succesful some people just like to whiz pass us. haha.

there are still more photos! especially for graduation day. i'll upload it some other day. there are too many!

2008-11-15T21:52:00.000+08:00

went to church today. i helped in many many things for fund raising! ok, maybe not a lot, but quite a fruitful preparation. i think we had quite an enjoyable time, especially cooking the noodles and mincing the luncheon meat. it's quite fun though.

it'll be the fund raising tomorrow! hope it will turn out well :)
uncle lee was nice to let us have a taste of the fish he fried!

ok, these pictures were taken on thursday in church. we were preparing for fund-raising.

i love huilun!

we were so excited that we were all in school uniform.

2008-11-13T15:40:00.000+08:00

O levels will soon be over with the blink of an eye. yes, it will be the end for me tomorrow. ok, why does it sound like i'm going to die? THE BIOLOGY PAPER MARKS THE END.
i think the o levels is dragging too long, for almost one month. it makes students even slacker and the urge of studying eventually died down. especially for the two mcq papers. a thought came to my mind that i don't mind having two mcq papers in one day and yesterday, i didn't mind going back to school at 9pm to finish the exam papers. BECAUSE I WANT IT SO BADLY TO END!!! it's rather tormenting and torturing to want it to end but it's not ending.

casting aside o levels, i've been rather crazy about xie ting feng lately. he's cool! i'm serious. i like his 眼神！i know this may sound dumb, but it's true!

GRADUATION IS ON NEXT MONDAY.

PROM IS ON THE FOLLOWING DAY. (i've not prepared anything! oh no!)

2008-10-19T18:06:00.000+08:00

O LEVELS STARTS TOMORROW!!!

not fated? dashed.

2008-10-12T23:35:00.000+08:00

ok, today marks one more week to O levels. oh man, i'm so excited and nervous at the same time. o levels sounds so exciting but scary. oh dear, i'm weird.

didn't go to church today because i just got back from Malaysia. My cousin's wedding! i like the starting of the wedding dinner whereby the groom started singing the song"can you feel the love tonight" then my cousin suddenly emerged and walked down the aisle with two children. one of them is my cousin. he was so handsome yesterday. ok, i'm not smitten with him, he's only 7. and so he continued singing and i think it's quite.

the emcee was like asking "so can you feel the love tonight?"
my cousin, "CANNNNNNNNN."

HAHA! the way she said "can" was so funny.

they had karaoke session when everybody can go up to sing. my mother was like "eh you go up and sing your zhang hui mei's song." i started nudging her to ask her to stop saying so loudly because it was so embarrassing! plus, that song is a sad song, it doesn't match with the joyous occassion. some people went up, some could not sing but dared to sing. some could really sing and sang very well. the groom's grandmother went up and sing and she was so cute! she sang some hokkien song and the groom went up to present flowers to her and planted a kiss on her cheek. because the groom was so tall, she made several attempts to kiss him back on the cheek but couldn't reach. then the grandmother whispered something to him, then he bent down! haha! needless to say, you will know what she whispered to him. it's so funny ok!

despite all these funny things, i can't help feeling guilty. BACAUSE....................................................... I DIDN'T STUDY FOR THE WHOLE NIGHT!:(
and i guess, i won't be blogging now, until after the o levels.
so yeah.
ALL THE BEST TO ALL EXAMS PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-10-12T19:49:00.000+08:00

ok, today marks one more week to O levels. oh man, i'm so excited and nervous at the same time. o levels sounds so exciting but scary. oh dear, i'm weird.

didn't go to church today because i just got back from Malaysia. My cousin's wedding! i like the starting of the wedding dinner whereby the groom started singing the song"can you feel the love tonight" then my cousin suddenly emerged and walked down the aisle with two children. one of them is my cousin. he was so handsome yesterday. ok, i'm not smitten with him, he's only 7. and so he continued singing and i think it's quite.

the emcee was like asking "so can you feel the love tonight?"
my cousin, "CANNNNNNNNN." HAHA! the way she said "can" was so funny.

they had karaoke session when everybody can go up to sing. my mother was like "eh you go up and sing your zhang hui mei's song." i started nudging her to ask her to stop saying so loudly because it was so embarrassing! plus, that song is a sad song, it doesn't match with the joyous occassion. some people went up, some could not sing but dared to sing. some could really sing and sang very well. the groom's grandmother went up and sing and she was so cute! she sang some hokkien song and the groom went up to present flowers to her and planted a kiss on her cheek. because the groom was so tall, she made several attempts to kiss him back on the cheek but couldn't reach. then the grandmother whispered something to him, then he bent down! haha! needless to say, you will know what she whispered to him. it's so funny ok!

despite all these funny things, i can't help feeling guilty. BACAUSE....................................................... I DIDN'T STUDY FOR THE WHOLE NIGHT!:(
and i guess, i won't be blogging now, until after the o levels. so yeah.

ALL THE BEST TO ALL EXAMS PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-09-17T20:46:00.000+08:00

Wham! i should really hit myself awake. i've been feeling so sleepy almost everyday which is definitely not good because it reflects badly. like being half dead every morning and being so listless. BAD.
i'm going to "chiong" everyday until end of o'levels and i don't care.

i was quite impressed by this identity proved by Hansen. it's quite interesting and hilarious, but logical at the same time. don't think anyone can come up with that.HAHA.

ok. back to maths. :)

2008-09-05T22:37:00.000+08:00

holidays are ending soon.
on the run and rush again.
time to be stressed again. (as if i'm very relax now)
EXAMS AGAIN.
ah. stupid.

can i have that dream again?

2008-08-30T23:55:00.000+08:00

some more pictures from yesterday. just downloaded and i was so to excited to upload it. i'm happy today. EXUBERANT.

kaisiang was saying shinfen always look funny when she says "dou". well, i find it cute! haha.

so unglam. the first thing when i do when my name is called while playing whacko is not to call another person's name, but scream. that's why i ended up being the whacky person. HAHA. whacky person. so cool.

2008-08-29T21:29:00.000+08:00

it's teacher's day celebration today and we obviously had quite some fun in school with all the party hats,games and food, but most importantly the teachers! but the sad moment came when we had to bid farewell to miss tan. i was so surprised that some boys cried. they don't look like they will cry. but it was quite interesting! haha. this year's teacher's day school celebration,which is the concert, was so so so boring. i think the parents support group was the best. they were so cute when they sang the happy teacher's day song.
miss tnee was the first teacher i gave present to today and i know she was touched! by my present. haha.

went back to zhangde after celebrations and it was great to see some familiar faces again, like... MISS NG! LYDIA! ZHIPENG! and many many more. miss ng could remember my name till now. wow. super memory. gosh, i must have been a really good student.

ALL THE BEST MISS TAN IN YOUR FUTURE CAREER! GOD BLESS YOU!
I LOVE YOU.

miss tan is going to get married soon!

mdm yehidaah! cannot take it. she teach me for four years! netball also she in charge.

ahaha. i like mr kamal. he's so cute.
he always says this: "Pooi! My problem? What you want?"

mr ong! we always have to understand where he's coming from.

dearest auntie HO.

BELLY.

ha! ZHENZHEN! GUNAWAN.

wendy. english oral partner. but we rarely had the time to practise together before oral exam. haha.

HI SIR! i realised he only brought a shirt to school today and nothing else.

stop calling me WINDOWS MICROSOFT WORD! or rather, STOP GIVING ME NICKNAMES!

shinshin. NO. SHINFEN.

kaisiang. he sure has fair complexion.

yingting. be careful. don't sprain your ankle anymore.

ruby ruby.

MING GE. another classmate of four years.

6/2 of 2004. look at the hat on miss ng's head! it's the one i wore during 4D1 party.

oh my goodness. so many people change. i couldn't recognise some of them at first. especially Linus! the one on the left of the picture,with the cap on.

miss ng didn't change much and we kept asking when is she going to get married. miss ng is still so funny like last time. she insisted on sharing the doughnuts with us but we refused and ike kie ate two of them!

let me share something.

TADAH!

so scandalous!

ok no la. yingting sprained her ankle during preparations for teacher's day and so she lent hansen's shoulder for support so that she can walk properly. so cute la. hansen was like "aiya, i send you home la" and we started laughing. but he didn't, i think.

so yeah. HAPPT TEACHERS' DAY TO ALL THE TEACHERS! and just two more months, I'LL BE FREE!!!

2008-08-19T20:27:00.000+08:00

I HAVE TWO HAPPY THINGS TO SHARE TODAY!

one, ENGLISH ORAL IS OVER! yeah! i'm super happy, the theme was sports and i could finally present my netball speech. silly me. i was laughing to myself when i was reading through the passage and also the picture. man, this is like a load off my mind.

two, SHAWN JOHNSSON WON A GOLD MEDAL TODAY ON THE BEAM. and i'm super happy. finally it's not china. and NASTIA LIUKIN GOT SILVER. YES! ALL FROM USA. third was china. shawn johnsson is just too cool, she's so cute and small. i think she has beautiful features. nastia liukin too. her elegance. in case you didn't know, i'm talking about Olympics Gymnastics.

she looks like a mummyyyyyyy

HANNAH kept showing off her tv to me.

two pictures from TO KILL A MOCKINGBIRD play. it was not that good but good experience, thinking that it's the first time i go to a play. and yeo yanyan from 881 acted, and it was a pity i didn't have a chance to take a picture with her.

all right that's all. BYE.

2008-08-11T15:55:00.000+08:00

Beijing Olympics is just too enticing! my family switched on the television and my eyes are glued to the tv. Beijing Olympics is just the wrong timing for me. i watched Gymnastics at 10pm yesterday and USA was obviously better than any other countries except China who scored the highest for the prelims. but i don't think China was that good. they do not have the elegance that USA gymnasts have. Shawn Johnsson from USA is like only 15 this year and she was the overall champion for all the sections. she was super good at Beam Standings.
and guess what. Malaysia's badminton player won today! wow. the match was so exciting. my father kept praising him. haha.

during praise in church yesterday. i played wrongly for "shout to the lord". supposed to have an up-chord but i played the wrong note or rather chord and everything sounds so weird. but it's ok. everything got better later on.

and right now, if you want to ask me to smell some fragrance or whatever, i can't. my nose is blocked and i'm coughing horribly. i did not dare to cough that much during church service yesterday. my throat was so uncomfortable that i had to cough but i held back if not i would be disturbing the whole service and that would not be pleasant.
O level english oral exam is next week. ok, no 'erms'. but mr ong didn't say anything about it during the practice session, that means, i'm fine!

the feeling is back... :)

2008-08-06T21:29:00.000+08:00

PIANO EXAM IS TOMORROW. i'm like counting down everyday.
THANK YOU JIA'EN FOR YOUR CONSTANT ENCOURAGEMENT!

i'm going to fall sick soon. i was feeling really unwell today and sort of feeling a little cold. had a terrible sore throat yesterday and now my throat still feels a little uncomfortable and uneasy. but it's ok. I'll pull through with God's presence. it's just three more months. or even less. better!

最珍贵的角落

謝謝你燦爛笑容
照亮我的天空
謝謝你分享心情
把我放在你心中

夜裡有時会寒冷
你我生根同暖土
友情是最亮的星
我的生命從此美麗

當你被花朵包圍
盡情歡欣
我帶春風使你舞其中
當你正走在坎坷路
我會伴你在左右

一起向藍天歡呼
向白雲招手
我們一起笑一起哭
千萬人中有個人懂我
你有最珍貴的角落

2008-08-03T00:46:00.000+08:00

celebrated yizhen's birthday after praise team today and i got cream in my hair thanks to weijing. what is funny is that i don;t have a picture with yizhen, it's in her camera. she's the female lead but i didn't take one using my phone with her.

i feel guilty today because i didn't study much.

ah lun.

few more days to piano exam and i'm scared.

2008-08-01T22:58:00.000+08:00

it'll be a long long day tomorrow. first thing tomorrow, piano lesson at 8am! that's super early. i'll just have to endure for few more days and it will be the end for piano lessons until o levels is over.
then it will be praise team till around evening 5pm. then study study study.

my face turned extremely red suddenly and it feels hot and painful. this is exactly the same feeling 2 years ago during sec 2. i remembered this happened in school and dearest Pearl and Tammy helped me run here and there to inform teachers and stayed with me until my mother came to fetch me form school. oh no. so what's wrong?

all right. nothing else. i'll go and sleep.

2008-07-31T21:53:00.000+08:00

I WANT TO SLEEP.

2008-07-26T16:15:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE. IT'S ALREADY 26 JULY!
APPROXIMATELY 3 MONTHS OR LESS TO O LEVELS!

Our class had PE LESSON yesterday and most of us had great fun playing basketball.
now finally we had a chance to let out all our stress. both the boys and girls played together.even dandan joined in. omg. she was saying "argh. i'm too stressed! must play!" Hansen gunawan made me laugh throughout the whole game. he almost fell while catching a pass from me. hahaha.
nicholas wee might as well just form a team by himself.
yanjing and i suddenly broke into a game of netball by dodging here and there. passing to each other without dribbling. and suddenly everybody said "eh. this is not netball."
somebody threw the ball and it hit quanmei and as you see, she's the treasurer of the class. so hansen was kind of afraid that she might cry or something like that so he said "okok. i'll pay $85!" LOL. $85 is for prom night. and quanmei has asking us to pay up.

i've decided to stay in school to study everyday. ok. maybe not everyday. most of the days. i can resist temptations in school to concentrate plus, i can accomplish a lot. not that i can't do anything at home, just that the school is quite conducive and i can clarify my doubts by asking the teachers in school. besides, my class has air-con. cooooooooool.

the food and travel fair. my class was the last class to go up to the hall for that travel and food fair and guess what. when we went, they were starting to pack up. and i was EXTREMELY TERRIBLY hungry. luckily dearest miss tnee had food! but seriously, this travel and food fair is getting better and better over the years. i saw the booths set-ups, it was quite well done and nicely put up. plus, the costumes that the students wore were interesting and definitely something different. thinking back, my batch was the first ones to do this project and obviously, ours were not that excellent. i remembered myself wearing some taiwanese costume asking people to eat this eat that and i even went to the principal's room to invite her to the fair. and that time, my group's booth was like something that can collapse anytime. although it takes up a lot of enery, it was quite memorable. Tammy was like some lady boss. hahaha. samuel was as quiet as usual. yes, and he always stones. (i remembered him cooking pearls for milk tea!) hilarious.

EVERYTHING IS IN ARIAL TODAY. (i'm talking about the font) haha.

Grade 8 piano exam is on 7 August and i'm scared.
pray for me yeah? :)

2008-07-20T21:05:00.000+08:00

i didn't even have the time to rest fully after term 3 exams and i'm beginning to feel some discomfort and fatigue. but today's worship and praise in church was wonderful and i can totally forget all the tiredness and worries that i had. the practices that the praise team had for the past two days have not gone to waste. and indeed, today was our best among the two practices. God really brought us through and gave us strength.

come to think of it, it was really amazing. i was asleep yesterday night and i suddenly woke up at 5am this morning because my arms were in excruciating pain. i tossed and turn on the bed and couldn't get to sleep because the pain was intolerable. and i wanted to call for my mother but somehow i couldn't call out. and this morning, i could still feel some pain. but when i started the playing the piano for the praise team, it's like, i could forget all the pain and just put my heart into playing the songs. God has removed the pain from me! :) and today is indeed a memorable day!

it's a new day in school tomorrow. GO ON.

2008-07-09T13:48:00.000+08:00

A. MATHS EXAM WAS A TOTAL KILLER TODAY!!!
miss tan said paper one would be easier. we don't have to take paper two anymore. we will fail. everybody was complaining today that the paper was super difficult. argh. it's so demoralizing!

2008-06-28T21:24:00.000+08:00

duckie

from being very man to a beauty?

HAHA. i like the fat person that was drawn by hannah.

work work work.

2008-06-24T15:08:00.000+08:00

so... today marks the beginning of EXAMS! after term 3 exam, it will be prelim, then the BIG O'S. i wasn't sure whether i was suffering from amnesia, but yesterday i went to bed at 10.30, tossed and turned, and i ended up sleeping at 1am! and this kind of thing has not been happening for quite some time and now it's happening again. yes, i do have amnesia last time, quite often. it stopped for a while and now it's back!

stress? lol. i don't think so!

and my back have been aching for quite some time. i'm seriously old. i can't sit for too long, if not my back will ache! and i can't bend my back for too long while i'm writing something using the table. and even when i'm sleeping, i can have backaches! and again, i have not been having backaches for quite some time and now it's back! yes, i used to have backaches.
i was having slight backache during English Exam today. and luckily, it wasn't that bad today. yesterday night was terrible, i couldn't even sit properly. i think i will have serious illness next time when i am old.

I saw Lydia's tag on my tagboard and she said something about the pact we made during our primary school times or during sec one or two when we went back to Zhangde primary of going to the same JC in future. saw her tag and it really triggers the memories i had with them in primary school. they were indeed unforgettable and i really hope that the pact will come true and i hope to see them again soon!

i shall continue to study. bye:)

2008-06-18T20:47:00.000+08:00

i have a problem. i don't know which part of a person's faceto look at when i'm talking to him or her. look at the eyes? no, that will be super duper weird and i'm afraid something unusual will happen. muahahah. i think i always looks at the person's mouth which is extremely weird and wrong? i think i'll just look at the ceiling when i'm talking indoor and look at the sky when i'm talking outdoor with people. and not long after, you will see me walking with my heads lifted up all the time because i can't move my head. lol move my head sounds weird. don't worry, i'm not 目中无人.

i'm filled with jubilance today. wow. degree of vocab. haha. yeah i'm in a happy mood today. english lesson in school was fun today and mr ong did some funny actions and said some funny things in class today and i couldn't stop laughing. he wanted to demonstrate what it means by the word "ambush" and he hid beside the OHP and attempted to scare Brandon. But it failed because Brandon walked another way. oh and there was comprehension. we have to explain the words for the vocabulary part. and there was this word "divine" and we are suppposed to explain what does the word meant in the passage. the word was used in the passage to describe the sauce as "divine sauce" on some mutton stew which tasted heavenly, something like that. and don't know who from the class asked

somebody: can it be explained as "holy"?
Mr Ong: HOLY? HOLY SAUCE? you mean the sauce was blessed?

OMG! that left me laughing away for the rest of the lesson. i've only heard of HOLY WATER but not HOLY SAUCE. can you imagine if you bless the sauce before pouring it onto your meal. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. alright, enough of laughing.

there are many nice dramas to watch recently but exams are cominggggggggg so i have to refrain from watching tooooo much. and i'm seriously trying to control myself from watching charmaine sheh's dramas. she's just too gorgeous and and COOL.
and i shall now steal some more glances of her before i get back to work. haha.

goodbye:)

2008-06-17T15:25:00.000+08:00

I DON'T WANT TO STUDY!!! TIRED.

2008-06-13T20:18:00.000+08:00

there is approximately one more week to school reopens and also to the first paper for Term 3 English Exam. i don't think i would be able to finish all revision by then. Biology alone has 17 chapters and it requires memory work. ARGH.

i'm going malaysia tomorrow! i miss my grandparents ok. i want to go back now. and i will be back with a new haircut. woo! i'm so excited to get a new haircut although i know there will not be much difference than before, but still i'm excited. haha. my mother is busy packing now. i hate packing. my mother won't let me pack also because i will take many many clothes even though we are only going for two days. besides, packing uses up a lot of energy and it will make me go crazy and frustrated!

don't you think she's gorgeous? i love she shi man!

2008-06-10T22:48:00.000+08:00

suddenly there's this heavy downpour, thunder, lightning everything. i was so scared of the lighting. i wanted to close the windows but saw lightning all of a sudden and i screamed!

i made a pact with my brother. we shall take turns to buy lunch since we will be staying at home. so i bought lunch for both of us today and tomorrow shall be his turn! and just now he almost go against our pact.

HE: eh, tomorrow you buy lunch ok.
ME: you say that again?
HE: okok i buy.
as you see, from our house to redhill market, we have to walk for some distance. it's not too far, but also not very near. plus, the weather was terribly hot and so to ensure fairness, we came up with this pact. it's quite useful.

arifa can be quite an interesting person. she can make me laugh the whole day and she can make me feel so shocked and surprised at the same time. omg. mixed feelings. haha.

2008-06-06T23:01:00.000+08:00

NETBALL CAMP WAS SUPERB. i was touched.
谁还记得。。。

sometimes she's very man.

netball has really come to an end. i seriously miss netball.
I LOVE ALL MY TEAMMATES.

i'm only a tiny person on the earth. but in God's eyes, i'm always precious.

春天降临飘来花香

心触碰阳光的温暖

看天空重新绽放出蔚蓝

希望的翅膀已准备去飞翔

我会一直陪在你身旁

约好了做彼此的肩膀

向着阳光到处都开满了花

只要相信就能感觉爱的力量

这一刻我们乘着梦想一起飞翔

我张开我的翅膀

乘风我们飞向更远地方

一路上有你陪伴给我力量

梦是倔强的乐章

风吹不熄眼泪的光芒

一路上有你陪伴

唱悸动的感想

未来像花绽放

2008-05-31T19:55:00.000+08:00

i'm currently blogging in my auntie's house. my parents have gone to malaysia while my brother and i stayed behind because i refused to go. hahaha. basically, nothing special happened today except that i slack quite a bit.

oh yes. i'm super glad that JEANETTE AW didn't die in the end in RHYTHM OF LIFE. but seriously, that show is very extremely unrealistic. how can it be possible that i just flip one coin and i go back to the past? if this is true, i would be three years old now.

2008-05-24T21:26:00.000+08:00

went to jurong east library for english oral practice with mr ong today. i was the first few to reach! but was the last few to go in. haha. but it's not as scary as i thought it would be. basically, it's just picture discussion, nothing to be scared of. i started off with many "erm" and "er". mr ong was like " i don't any erms and ers." and i had to be careful. and mr ong actually counted how many erms and ers i've said and altogether i've said about 30 over of them which is a lot! if i were to do that on wednesday for english prelim oral, i will die. so please pray for me that "erms" and "ers" will not come across my mind on wednesday.

after that, i went back home to rest for one hour, and i had to go to church for praise team. praise team didn't take very long today and it's only three songs so yeah. everything was perfect, fast and swift.

holidays are here, but to sec fours, it's just like normal school days. there's nothing special about it. what's holiday man? no big deal. mr david chan was telling our class during friday morning assembly "you asll should not look forward to this holiday. look forward to the end of year holiday!" immediately after he said that, everybody fell silent and some sort sunken. what a sad life we lead yeah? it's holiday but we can't look forward to it.

ENDLESS LOVE
my love there's only you in my life
the only thing that's right
my first love
you're every breath that i take
you're every step i make
and i...
i want to share all my love with you
no one else will do
and your eyes
they tell me how much you care
you will always be my endless love

two hearts two hearts that beat as one
our lives have just begun
forever
i'll hold you close in my arms
i can't resist your charms
my love
i'll be a fool for you
i'm sure
you know i don't mind
cause you mean the world to me
ohi know i've found in you
my endless love

2008-05-20T22:23:00.000+08:00

it's 11pm now and i'm currently taking a break after studying for hours. argh. how tired can i get? this is never ending. why must it be so irritating that we have to take the o'levels? how wonderful will it be if we can just get into a university or rather just get a job without taking o levels? better still no need to work and money just keep rolling in.

alright alright... i shall just brush this off as my wildest imagination. Only God knows what's best for me.
it was a super tiring day in school day, 'lethargic' is the word to describe. i had to pinch myself to stay awake and will stifle a yawn now and then. i tried to be unnoticeable when i yawned and true enough, yawning is contagious. i mean for myself. i kept yawning ok only until my dearest Auntie Ho kept giving me sweets to eat and because of that i was able to concentrate better in class and became super high and energetic. I LOVE AUNTIE HO!

shall blog till here today. still got many things to do. think i can forget about sleeping tonight.
GOD BLESS...

2008-05-18T21:42:00.000+08:00

it was a fun day in church. our church celebrated Parents' Day in the form of like some sort of mini carnival and the theme was being retro. that's why you will see a sudden change in my hairstyle below. it was so cool and many funny things happened. suddenly, people will dress funnily and will make people laugh. it's no that they did something funny but it was the way they look like those two pictures below. and suddenly some girls will come out to dance those kind of dances you will dance in discos in the 1960s. and one of them pulled me to dance with them. omg. luckily i was strong enough to resist. everybody was so high. and i ate many many things. i bought a plate of char kway teow, then three sticks of satay, then ice-cream and then drank a cup of grass jelly drink. THEN... i bought another plate of nasi lemak which tastes fabulous. hmm... my church people can sure cook. and i used up many coupons. but in any case, it was fun!!!

and there were little children selling flowers. they were so cute! some of them knew me and so came up to me and asked me to buy.
[a small boy]pointing the flower at me and he's adorable: hey you, buy the flower.
[me]: but i'm only left with a two-dollar coupon.
[the small boy]: never mind. we don't want coupons, i want REAL CASH!

and he smiled cheekily and walked off. omg. this is so cute! is like he did not come up to me alone. he was holding hands with two other boys and they look extremely extremely cute. i think they will look even better if they dress in white. i kept telling my mother to ask them to dress in white so that they will look so adorable and also have a sense of innocence in them at the same time. hey, that reminds me of mockingbirds.hahaha. i just love little children.

genshun(georgie) dressed as elvis presley.

yeah bye! :):)

2008-05-17T12:55:00.000+08:00

woo... finally CLEMENTEEN IDOL is over! and i'm fourth :):) which i think is not bad la. this is my first time ok. and i finally plucked up the courage to step onto the stage to sing song. wow. from twenty minutes to yeah, finals. and miss tnee got kissed! muahahaha... it was damn funny! but anyway, thanks to my classmates for drawing those papers and waving it when i was singing, they were super cute. and also to all my NETBALL people. thanks for the "we love you, minwei!" it was a nice pose. too bad i can't take pictures of it.

so took some pictures backstage. luckily i had my handphone with me to take pictures.

this is jasvinder.

AW... this is my king. and i'm the queen.

ok, grace is the winner! i was telling her, "hey, no matter what, we are still friends ok?" you see, currently we are in the same class and so we don't want to hurt the relationship. ok, i'm being stupid and crazy. ignore my nonsense.

yvonne.

muahaha. look at his mouth!

syazanaaaaaaaa

didn't take with other finalists. after the whole thing, everybody went away so didn;t have the chance. but i think all finalists were cool!!!
oh yes. before my turn, i kept telling jasvinder to take the mike stand to the middle of the stage when she goes up on stage. she's the emcee and she'll be intoducing me so yeah. i reminded her like almost 20 times! and she could say the chinese song i'm going to sing in chinese under yvonne and my training. haha. and miss tan wen yi sang!!! woo. first time hearing her sing. bet annabel was feeling very extremely excited.
HANNAH SAID I LOOKED LIKE JEANETTE AW JUST NOW! and i was so excited because i love jeanette aw. :):)

ok, clementeen idol is over and now what i have to do is to study! for A MATHS TEST! miss tan said it's going to be very difficult! oh my gosh. i hate difficult tests. they make you so tensed up and worried and nervous and everything. but yeah! chemistry test is postponed to June Holidays!

TO KAISIANG: CHEER UP OK? WE WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU! DON'T BE SAD:):):)

2008-04-27T13:56:00.000+08:00

SPEECH DAY PICTURES. although it's a little late. but nvm. i used to hate speech day but after that, I LOVE SPEECH DAY!!!

yeah! we made the concert go round and round!

i love you guys!:D:D
(Daniel was extra)haha. i'm so bad.

ok, let me introduce you to my family:D

this is my mum. her name is Valane Tnee. she's a super duper nice person who always gives us things:) AND I LOVE MY MUM!!!

this is my elder brother(although i was born earlier than him but nvm. i want to be younger for once.) his name is Jeffrey Junior! I gave him the name. nice name yeah? but he said he is Alex. but i don't care. i'm going to ask mum to register his name as Jeffrey Junior in his birth certificate. but it's weird that me and my brother has different surnames. his is FONG, mine is WONG. it's only different in the first letter. can't be helped. mum likes it that way.

and in case you all didn't realise, i didn't have a picture of my daddy. due to some reasons, it can't be posted( actually i don't have it). this is to protect the honour and modesty of my mum. but let me tell you, daddy is a nice person.

ok, continue with speech day pictures:)

yeah! ZHENNING!

oh. i love viviana and i think she loves me too. she looked comfortable and cosy in my embrace.

YVONNE:)

I LOVE CAR

yeah, that's all. exams are cominggggggggggg. study study study:(

2008-04-05T12:10:00.000+08:00

i just went online and the first person who talked to me was hannah. she was like" hey minwei! call my phone! i just composed a new song and i want to sing to you!" can't remember what exactly she typed but this is roughly what she said. i was like so surprised! she's cool stuff man. she's been composing many songs ever since i know her. i want to compose songs too. can you imagine.

XXXsong. composed by: Wong Min Wei.

the thought of it makes me feel so excited. but i always come up with my own music on the piano. but everytime after i play a song, i will forget. there was only one time when i recorded it in my phone.

i miss duck family!!!(top two pictures) and the team.

2008-03-30T06:56:00.000+08:00

HI EVERYBODY! i haven't been blogging for a looooooooong time. life has been quite busy lately even without Netball. i shall start blogging from Wednesday.

it was full dress rehearsal on wednesday. it was super total waste of time. they asked us to be in the hall by 3.15pm but they start the whole concert only at 6pm!!! it's like we were waiting for three hours! i was wearing jeans on that day and unfortuately,the weather was extremely, terribly hot. you see, they shouldn't ask us to reach at 3.15 if they don't plan to start at that time. it'like they wanted to start but don't want to start. we don't even know what they want. carmen and i should have gone for training first then we go for rehearsal. many things can be done in three hours and we wasted the time just like that. and so halfway, carmen and i, wearing jeans and shirt, went down to train the sec ones. we were running up and down from the hall to the court. talking about sec ones, i feel so old now. when i looked at them, i'm like seeing my batch of teammates when we were sec ones. it's like just yesterdaay:( stupid, and it's o levels this year.

on thursday, we had a talk from Ngee Ann polytechnic during EP. many people were saying"the thought of going poly has never even crossed my mind!" we were all pestering the teachers to let us off from the talk. during the whole talk, i think 3/4 of the students were not listening at all. i see all the people talking and happily chatting away. lol. how rude and impolite can we get?
then it was Clementeen Idol audition. i was so scared and i didn't dare to go in for the audiotion. i stepped outside and looked. after it was over, carmen, lynn, yumi, yanjing and her xianggong and i went for mcdonalds. and i received miss tnee's message: i thought you are coming for audition? then another message came: COME. miss tnee said i' was chicken backside! carmen and i went back to school because we had rehearsal and guess what? i was forced to go for the audition! i stood there for like twenty minutes before i started singing. ARGH. it was so scary! haha. but now, i don't think i'll be that scared now.

yesterday was sports carnival. i joined handball. yeah!! and my house won the first for handball. our group comprises all students from the sports cluster. and overall, our house won second for everything. first was pheonix. went for lunch with tammy and the rest. we went to some plaza and had western food. and i learnt a new name for a drink. it's 'Michael Jackson'! haha. guess what it is? it's soya bean with grass jelly. how imaginative can people get? after eating, we went to a shop and tried on sunglasses and the shop owner was a super nice person! she doesn't mind at all that we were making a mess on her sunglasses. and then after that, i went home by taxi. the taxi driver chatted with me. haha. but when he's not looking at me or not looking at the mirror, he couldn't hear what i was saying. i told him something three times, but to no avail, he didn't answer me. i think he's deaf and relied on lip-reading. ok. this is just an assumption and inference. but the taxi driver was a chef! cool stuff right? he is working as a taxi driver temporarily and will go back to be a chef after three months because his hand was injured. and then i reached home. haha.

shall upload some pictures when i'm free. my brother is not around to lend me his sd card.
till then :)

2008-03-08T12:55:00.000+08:00

March Holidays are here!!! it's not really considered a holiday to me anyway. i have church camp from monday to wednesday. thursday and friday, i have to go back to school. sad that i have to go back to school on friday because friday is my big day! and i have to spend like half the day in school.
i'm so surprised by my amaths test results. i thought i would fail ok. but i managed to get 18/25 which is ok la. at least it is an A2.

went for West Zone netball finals today. i shouted and shouted and i think i will have not much voice tomorrow. it was so exciting during the Nan Hua and Mgs match. super exciting. Mgs c div and b div both got champion this year. Melissa said"it should be ours!" and i went"it's no use regretting!" in a funny tone and melissa and lynn started laughing. they said i was trying to act cute but i wasn't!

Flag day is tomorrow and i think it's a waste of time. what's the point? it only gives students time and chance to go and slack and not ask people to donate money. but looking on the positive side, it's good that we are able to help the people in need. so yeah. i'm super tired! played netball after watching finals today. woo. i'm old!

2008-02-26T11:46:00.000+08:00

it's all over. i can't help but feel sad ok. losing is an awful feeling. i hate it.

TO THE TEAM: I LOVE YOU ALL A LOT. i can't nag at you all anymore so jiayou. sec threes, you all will do us proud next year. i want to say that i really enjoy being teammates with all of you and i would miss our training days very much! STRIVE ON.

love, minwei.

2008-02-13T13:17:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! though it's a little late.
school has restarted and many test are coming and i'm seriously mentally tired. I have been studying since i came back home just now. i will have lesser time to blog now:( this is sad. but please continue to visit my blog. don't make it look so dead. thanks.
chemistry test tomorrow. histody test on friday. can't blog further. bye:)

God bless...

2008-01-31T13:38:00.000+08:00

pictures:) not many. only three, and a video! haha.

i think we look quite nice in our jersey.

with sharon

with cheuping

have been quite busy lately and i'm having lesser time to blog! everything in sec four is rushing.
match with commonwealth tomorrow. jiayou!